Wei is Lost in Spain.
Will be back soon.

Am I living in a slump?
Or I am really lost in who am I actually?
Am I happy for what I am now?
Was I happy for what I was?
mmMmm
Maybe after exam period,
there is too much times for me to get myself troubles in all these.
Soon and Sooner and Soonest
I will be out of all these.
Is a Saturday night,
which I have missed for 2 weeks.
I am going to enjoy it!
Put down everything on my shoulder.
Let the flow brings me to the sky.
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Before I end up my post,
I would like to tell a friend with the Capital N
I would like to thank you for the lovely sushi you have prepared.
I can see your sadness and also your happiness.
I believe in you that you know what exactly you are in now.
I am not going to comment anything.
Just be strong~

-The Holiday-

I was playing with the astro remote control,
keep on switching channel.
I stopped once I saw this movie.
I have watched this movie since ages ago.
English movies will always not my choice of movie,
I prefer chinese action movies.
Until I met a friend.
She was telling me that english movies is so much nicer than chinese movies.
Maybe one of the reason that I would not choose English Movies is because I hardly hear the english or maybe is I refuse to learn the skill of listening.
I did not have much feelings when I watched this movie last time.
Until today, I deeply feel how is the character's feelings in the movie.
The way they talks..The way they express their loves to their loved one is really good~
I was so touched and unconsciously feels sweet when watching it.
I just can not just close my mouth from smiling.
Somehow your feelings toward your loved one should not be hided in your heart.
You must learn to express it out to your loved one.
The words you say is not necessary flowery or pretty sentences.
A simple " I Love You " truly from your heart while starring at your loved one is really enough.
That will be the most romantic sentence ever~

Regarding to my previous post,
For my own opinion, I am agree with the guy.
After a pure friendship went through love, is really hard to back to the pure one.
Maybe it is just depends on people's thinking on this particular case?

From the mouth, we will says :" Yes, we are friend. "
But unconsciously, we are not.
It could not be explained by words.
It is just some sort of indescribable feelings.

The position of ex will be more awkward.
The ex just could not be treated as a friend if they do had a really serious relationship.
The words of ex will be judged more than words from a normal friend.
It is just really can not get back to normal friend.

A friendship can be replaced by a serious relationship
but
A serious relationship can not be replaced back by a friendship anymore.

mmMmm..

I realized that a human really scare of the attack of lonely.
To prevent lonely, human is willing to sacrifice everything.
Lonely might be something scaring? something that builds you up?
Lonely will usually attack that you are home alone or
when you are staying awake in the midnight.

You better bless that your emo"ness" do not attack during the midnight.
Because is really hard for you to find a friend to talk to you.
Of course, this is only for single people.
My advise is go and take flu medicine so that you can just fall asleep in 5minutes.
(ahaha..Just Kidding)
After a sleep, everything will be fine.
Is just a brand new day~
Do not open your eyes until morning, is worthless.
This will only makes your parents worried about your health.
So still the best way is go and take flu medicine..ahah

Anyway, let's end up here.
Good luck for my exam!
x0x0,
wei.

Words from movies

Girl : " Now you have been broke up with my sister, so will you continue to be her friend? "
Guy : " No. Do you think a couple can still be friend after the relationship ends? "
Girl : " Of course, why not? "
Guy : " There are only two reasons for a guy still making friend with his ex girlfren. "
Girl : " Huh? "
Guy : " 1st, the guy never ever love the ex girlfren coz the guy is impossible can handle the feelings in a short period. 2nd, the guy is still loving the ex girlfren. He is always there beside her is just wanna to have the chance to treat her nicely. "

So, are you the first reason or second reason?

Quote from AEC , 7pm, Singapore movie.

Tonight,

I found some of my kid photos.

So..share it here with you all.

I just realised that I am a cry bun and jealous king since baby~

Hahaa.. I asked my mom what's wrong with me in the photo?

She said : " Nerh.. you lar.. jealous jie jie owes!

Cry non stop everyday!"

Hahaa.. Can seen that I am an attention seeker.

I just love to Sha Jiao even I am 20 yrs old now.

Haha..I just wanna to get a little attention from my mom.

Hehe.

I found myself always have a coconut tree on my head.

The only way my mom know to tide my hair.

HAHA.

This is when i grown up a bit.

Wei :" Mom, why am I in panty always?"

Mom : "You are the one who always complain HOT until now! "

Maybe mom just think let me wear panty only will makes me feel better.

Somehow, I can be so sexy.

Wei :" Wah..mom I was so sexy man! "

Mom : " You love to choose sexy clothes coz less fabric, not so hot! "

okie.. another thing due with hot again.

so, this proves that Malaysia is really a hot weather country.

Hehe

Is Baby Wei @ One year old.

There are still a lot of my baby photos.

Thanks mom for keeping all so that can have some memories.

Somehow, It is a way to talk with my mom more.

Like tonight, I asked her a lot about my baby stories.

mmMmmm..

One is DONE.
I slept at 5am.
woke up at 7am.
Reached school at 8am.
Exam started at 9am.
Out from exam hall at 10am.
Breakfast with judy at 11am.
Reached home at 12pm.
Monday 8.30am - Accounting 100 test.
I HATE ACCOUNTING.

Ehem.
Yes. I started my revision.
I stucked myself whole afternoon at Starbucks.
Faced problem when order for drinks.
Because I do not know how to differentiate those drinks.
They all look sweet and creamy,
which I dun like.
So I always try to see which name looks bitter.
AHAHAHA. IDIOT.
Preparing all those notes.
Surprisingly, I do not feel tired or sleepy over there.
I feel comfortable over there.
Bless me pass this fucking bored unit.
I am computer idiot.
and I am taking a unit of computer systems.
What the Fuck~
Anything do with my major?
Curtin!! I am taking Marketing and Management.
Not Computer Engineering.

Anyway I cut my hair again!
JUST BECAUSE OF
Ah Pui ( U know who are you k? )
He said my hair look messy, no shape.
Make me look sleepy n tired.
Therefore,
I went and cut a hair style
which make me looks having enough of sleep!
I feel my head so light. Like i shaved off all my furs.
Ahaha.
Have to get back to my revision.
That's all.

15th of Chinese New Year Calendar.
Recently,
facing problems from everywhere.
Kind of troubling me a lot mentally..
Dua Pek Gong,
bless me pass through all these problems.

Blackie :" Mmm.. bee, xiang xiang~ *Sniff* "

Yellowie : " =) " *shy*
Found this lovely couple.
Love them.
Muaks


These are the things that I have to keep in my pocket.
If not, i will feel so unsecured.
All in black~

Photo taken by Wenzi
Time : 2007 or begin of 2008
Auntie Wei.
OMG!
ENJOY LAUGHING!

There is a friend.
Due to certain reason, we seldom contact.
I knew her when I was in secondary school.
We do not even grab a chance to talk last time.
And due to a certain reason,
I found her friendster.
I leave her a comment.
Slowly I got her msn address.
Slowly I got her hp number.
Whenever I am unhappy,
I will leave her a msg.
Every of her reply will definitely cheers me up.
That's why I named her as
Kai Xing Guo.
These days I am being so emotional.
Due to certain reason,
I can not find her.
Until tonight I have a chat with her.
Within a sec,
She cheers me up.
I talked a lot especially in front of her.
That's why she got a new nick tonight.
which is
Kai Hou Tang.
Friend, I will always remember you taught me how to
XIAO XIAO^^

The unknown feeling is back.
The unstable me is back.
No reason. No solution.
Finger crossed.
Let me get over this.

Monday COFFEE BEAN, MIRI BRANCH
Friday - Business Information System 100
Monday - Accounting 100
Tuesday - Business Communication 101
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Stuck myself in Coffee Bean for whole afternoon. I am trying to get some revision for my exam. Business Information System is a fucking boring subject. It is all about computer technology. Nowadays, majority of youngsters know how to use computer well expect me. I only know to online and do my assignment with my computer. I do not know how to download movies, is that a shame? When I wanted to access to Coffee Bean wireless, I do not know how to. In the end, my friend told me that I have not key in the password. Stupid! I really need to learn as much as I can right now if not how gonna I survive in this advanced technology world. I do not know what drink is nice here. For my previous visit, I have ordered a White Chocolate Dream with cream o.n top, for me it is too sweet therefore I ordered Iced Mocha Latte. Oh Shit, it is fucking bitter. It do not even bring me energy but only make me have bad breathe. Random me have no mood continue my post already. It is a meaningless post

If there is a choice,

I will run away from you.

But,

I have no choice..

Yea..I know this is a suck edit. I am just bored. Friend called for alcohol section but I rejected. I just do not feeling like going out although I will only face my laptop when I got home.
Above this photo is taken years ago, I miss the hair style. Although it is not as hot as those magazine model's hair style but I just love this hair style. Can I just print this photo out and bring to the hairdresser and ask her to cut the exactly same one? I want to change a hair style but you know I have an abnormal big head and square face, is really hard to find myself a suit hair style and I am not confident on asking the hairdresser to design me a hairstyle. This is because I tried before, end up I have a coconut head which squeeze my face become even more square. As SQUARE as the Mahjong, horrible~ My wardrobe is increasing long sleeves shirt but not normal tees. mMm.. wanna to get some from Miri shopping malls but do not feel like because I scare another people have the same one. One of my friend keep asking me to change my style. I was wondering is my style got problem? The friend said NO, just you never try new style. Erm.. i am being thinking of this lately. Maybe i just need to change a style. But I have no idea about fashion and I do not wanna to follow the fashion, I just wanna to have a style that suits me and make me feel comfortable on it.
Readers, can you just leave some suggestion in my chatter box regarding to what style suit me? Thanks..

Is already 4++am, I should be here anymore. But I just could not close my eyes and have a nice sleep. Once I closed my eyes, I start thinking. Thinking about how to build up my future? Am I running on the right process of building up the basic level of my future? Recently, what I have in my mind is non stop earning money through anywhere, anytime. I just wanna to depend on myself but not my family. I just to get those things I like through my own. I just wish to buy the thing I like straightaway without thinking is there any money for me to back up if emergency happens. Due to my age of 20, I do not need to worry about money so much. But I just do not know why since I was 17years old, if there is no a piece of Rm50 in my wallet, I will feel very unsecured. Until now, I could not give an explanation on why I need at least Rm50 with me. Actually, I just have to try my best to finish my degree now. At least, I will not disappointed my parents who support me so tough for the high school fees. Anyway, next Friday I will have my first paper. I guess guys, you wont believe that I do not even start my revision yet. God bless me to pass my weakest subject which is Accounting 100. That's all for tonight. Treating blog as my diary now.

HEY HEY HEY

NO WORRIES!

YOU ARE ENTERING WEI'S BLOG!

NO DOUBT!

Photos taken on Jan 2008

Oh gosh.

can feel how many fat was I carrying?

Oh gosh.

Flush me into toilet bowl.

How many layers I had?

To show the differences,

below are my recent photo.

November 2008.

Any changes?

Big sarcrifice on posting up my super ugly photos~

Hope you guys like it.

I am just too bored in waiting the times pass.

I seems like having my holidays my own right now. Exam is just around the corner but I do not feel any stress, pressure or even a sense of nervous. What makes me turn to be like this? I used to mind a lot of my assignment marks and mid term marks which may makes me score higher for my internal marks so that I would not be so worried for my final exam. Most of the internal marks has released and yet I have not go check. So sick of settling all those documents stuff. I haven do my re enrollment still. Last few days, I asked my friend to help me check my documents. Luckily I did asked her to if not I guess I will be submitting Yayasan Sarawak a rubbish. Today, I went to Post Office. I hardly to know how to fill the forms and stuff. So shame when I asked the officers over there. I used to ignore everything a lot because I know there was someone who always settle all these for me. Until today, I just realized that how important is that to learn how to fill in form. I think I do not know where to pay those electricity or water bills. Is such a shame right? Is OK, I promised myself I will try to learn everything that I could. Aikss..until now I still can recall of the face of the officer. Aiks. This is one of my weaknesses which is I care how people think of me. Maybe this is what so call "face problem". The skin specialist ever told me that my skin is very thin simply means that my face can not be lose on. Hahaha, strongly agree with her. I admit. Just received a phone call from my friend, called me out for tea. I rejected but I feel like joining them so much because they seems like my "Happy Pill". They brings away all my sadness and cheers me up a lot everywhere, anytime, anywhere. How wish I could just do not care about my parents and just take the car key and drive out my car. But I know I could not. I do not brave enough and I respect them. This is because I know they have tried their best to give me more freedom these years. I saw their little improvements.
But somehow, bad outshines good.

Emo factory is working today.
Decision has made last night.
Thanks Steph for the whole night.
Is has been a long time I do not have such nervous feelings.
Luckily actions are not taken this morning.
Is blessed that I over slept.
Everything is spoiled cause of a phone call.
yes..the person I am regarding to is you.
The person who brought me happiness.
The person who brought me happy Sunday.
Sorry.
I do not know how can I contact you right now.
I knew you got read my blog.
That's why I wish to tell you through here.
Sorry.
I admit I was quite angry.
Because you made me lose all my faces.
which is so important for me.
I do not why you do not even inform me.
I wish to know why.
You might say you do not even need to inform me.
Okay.
I understand.
I knew.
Anyway thanks for what you have done.

I am here cause of some particular words
which might make me damn emo, it might be my sensitivity.
yea, my extreme is as famous as Edison's sex photos n videos.
The way to control my extremeness is not to be so sensitive everytime.
But somehow is people do not know me well.
Sick of doing explanations. Feeling myself so fake with the masks.
Once again, I might hurt you of my words but I confirm I have no intentions
AT ALL
yea, thanks for those who knows me well.
Maybe only one or two people??
yes, I have my attitude problem.
But everyone is ain't prefect.
If you cant take me, please leave me.
At least I know myself well that I ever treat u as a close friend.
After that day, I am really totally disappointed already.
I do not know what is the point?
Is because I ever did those for you,
and when I do not got something back from you,
so I was being upset?
Or I am sick of being treated as invisible?

Sis is testing her phone camera.
Me n bro become the targets.
hahaha..boring post..
just share some photos.

The big head and the Small head

Camwhore before out for dinner.
Any comments?
Sorry for that huge pimple on my face.!

Soho Night
Sannie non stop eating.
She is good in drinking.
Dunno how many bottles for the night.
continue at country club and balcony some more.
Unable to grab any photos due to my phone battery.
A sob sob night.
Balcony is full of uncles..
Before the night get started.

Me & Nana

Emo Nana

Marina Bay
Nice environment, views, atmosphere.
Finished 6 jugs of beer.
I am getting phobia.
I need to stop drinking.
Clubbing.
But not gambling.

Tagged by Jesz since ages ago

15 weird things/habits/little known facts about myself :

1. I love half boiled egg.
   
2. I love steamboat lamb.
   
3. I love long sleeves shirt.
   
4. I love to gamble.
5. I wish to have a yellowish cat.
   
6. I have bad temper.
7. I am straight forward.
   
8. I always keep my pocket full or else I will feel unsecured.
   
9. I enjoy searching for car accessories.
   
10. I need Light soya for every meal I have outside.
    
11. I love coffee and tea.
    
12. I love to enjoy myself at resort hotel.
    
13. I am very extreme (I love then I love, I hate then I hate)
    
14. I am getting a tattoo soon.
    
15. I want my future is guarantee well.