Rotten world of me

I seems like having my holidays my own right now. Exam is just around the corner but I do not feel any stress, pressure or even a sense of nervous. What makes me turn to be like this? I used to mind a lot of my assignment marks and mid term marks which may makes me score higher for my internal marks so that I would not be so worried for my final exam. Most of the internal marks has released and yet I have not go check. So sick of settling all those documents stuff. I haven do my re enrollment still. Last few days, I asked my friend to help me check my documents. Luckily I did asked her to if not I guess I will be submitting Yayasan Sarawak a rubbish. Today, I went to Post Office. I hardly to know how to fill the forms and stuff. So shame when I asked the officers over there. I used to ignore everything a lot because I know there was someone who always settle all these for me. Until today, I just realized that how important is that to learn how to fill in form. I think I do not know where to pay those electricity or water bills. Is such a shame right? Is OK, I promised myself I will try to learn everything that I could. Aikss..until now I still can recall of the face of the officer. Aiks. This is one of my weaknesses which is I care how people think of me. Maybe this is what so call "face problem". The skin specialist ever told me that my skin is very thin simply means that my face can not be lose on. Hahaha, strongly agree with her. I admit. Just received a phone call from my friend, called me out for tea. I rejected but I feel like joining them so much because they seems like my "Happy Pill". They brings away all my sadness and cheers me up a lot everywhere, anytime, anywhere. How wish I could just do not care about my parents and just take the car key and drive out my car. But I know I could not. I do not brave enough and I respect them. This is because I know they have tried their best to give me more freedom these years. I saw their little improvements.
But somehow, bad outshines good.