Half Year Ago...

Half year ago,
I am not only a heavy smoker,
also heavy alcoholic, heavy gambler, heavy clubber.

Half year after,
I am still a smoker but lighter,
also a lighter alcoholic, lighter gambler, lighter clubber.

Depression ----> even more depression!

Chance is given,
I noticed it but I am not allowed to hold it.
Different excuses are given
But do not make any senses.

A couple is not all the while having sweetness,
They will face bitterness too.
Is just a test from the God to every lovers.
Just to test how strong is them bond to each other.
Lovers, pls stay strong and face every difficulties with your loved one!
But not choose to ignore and be afraid.

This is just because,
once the chance is gone, it will be forever gone...

To be honest,
I am emo right now.
Words from my heart couldn't be displayed anymore.
Locking back my heart..

=) wo zhen de hen bu kai xing.

Went for a body checking yesterday.
Is really cool and it costs me only rm10.
May have a try at imperial 2nd floor, right beside the escalator.
Because of my well functioning brain,
It going leads me to depression!
WAD THE FUCK
was my respond when i heard it.
I am getting more and more worried.
More and more depress..
How can I stopped my brain?
I have been thinking too much last night before i sleep
till I had a freaking scaring nightmare!!!!

For some reasons,
I have a lot of thing to think think think everyday.
Sometimes, I dun even know my friend is talking to me.

At the side of my studies,
I dun really doing well on my previous semester,
i hope i have the motivation to achieve better,
so that I could find myself a reason to go to Aus finish my final year.

At the side of my "Marketing"
i hope things will getting more n more smooth.
Given me more chances to social,
to know more people,
to upgrade more my financial level.

At the side of my family,
I bless all of them will be safe and good.
Especially my 93years old grandpa.
I hope you able to attend my graduation day.
I hope can get more supports from my family.

About myself,
I hope i can be dun too stubborn.
But no matter how,
I will still run my own rule.
my own request to myself!
Be somebody but not a nobody!
Retired at the young age of 40.
Given my parents a nice retired life.
Guarantee my little brother future.
Lighten the parent's burden as soon as I can!
Bless me!

=)

A smile from you,
is my everything.

Happy 2009

First,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
(MOO MOO YEAR)
although I have no idea why Moo Moo,
n I have no idea why I dislike ppl say Moo Moo.
Random one..okay IGNORE!

By the way,
I took plenty photos during cny,
but I couldnt upload coz of my laptop got problem.

The first day of Cny,
The very first time I dressed myself in a RED shirt.
GOSH!
This year I do not follow my family,
I stayed at home.
I knocked my baby down,
so now my baby is in the hospital!
Sorrie~

The Second day of Cny and the following days,
GAMBLE GAMBLE GAMBLE

Yea.. I know this is a fucking lame post ever!

NO photos only words.

Sorry.. I blog is because I am just too bored..

Waiting one of the Dunhill Ladies to pick me up!

Always the slow one!

Judy T.S.K

A silent toy

-A Silent Toy-

is playing the role of...

hiding all the happiness and sadness

inside the little heart.

Sadness always outshining the happiness.

Breaking the heart into pieces.

=)

A smile of a silent toy

means

Life is still going on..

Cheers..

Nice one (Copied)

女人不同男人，男人如果變了心，他會選擇跟女孩遠走飛高，對從前的那一位毫無留戀。但是大部份女人，如果變了心，就算她心裡愛著的是別人，她對從前一位總是放不低。

她們是無心的，因為每個女人都想自己被愛著。如果是她先變心，她還是希望你會原諒，若然有一天她發現選擇錯誤，還能回到你的身邊。

所以一直就算她跟別人在一起，還是想打聽你的消息，看看你每天在做什麼。她最關心的是你有沒有認識別的女子?你有沒有等我?你有沒有想念我?而她最希望還是你還願意借出耳朵分享所有，包括分享她與新歡的一切。

女人先變心，就要求男人還是對她忠心。因為女人對變心，並沒有安全感，面對一段新的感情，她充滿疑問。她不知道這是突如其來的衝動，還是一份激烈的新鮮感。她最害怕將來有一天，他也變像她一樣變心。她深信感情是有報應的!

就是現在有著種種的不安感，於是她還是很怕從前的另一伴被人搶走。因為從前那裡是她的基地，最安全的地帶。但這些全是她自己一手粉碎。於是她害怕不能重新尋覓這個幸福，這種不安令到她想繼續霸佔從前的情人。

假若是她先變心，她會認為，你還是我的。從前你不是說照顧我一生一世嗎?所以你不可以這樣輕易愛上別人，至少跟我分手一年後才愛吧。這樣才証明你過去對我是全心全意，你並沒有向我說謊。甚至你會一直守護著我，直至我尋找到另一個真正認為能跟他渡過下半生的人。

直至她安心跟另一個人戀愛，你才不是她的。

The decision

A decision has made.
-Walk away-

The path of road that I ever walked before.
I believe I still can remember how the road goes.
How cold and lonely is the road,
I will never forget.

Hahaha.
Damn a long time didn't have this kind of feeling.
Maybe is just a way to bump back my heart.
Cold blooded, numb. That's me.

Let's back to R.O.T.T.E.N !!!

=)
Learn to smile~